Blogging envy is something that’s been bugging me ever since I started this new blog, and really — I just need some place to vent, which is a warning to you that this post might get ranty. Bear with me!
But what do you mean by “blogging envy”?
Before you think that I’m talking about book hauls and stuff, let me clarify: this post isn’t about that. I mean, I do get envious whenever I see someone receiving a pile of ARCs I really want to read, but it’s the good kind of jealousy, you know? The kind of jealousy that will probably not do any harm except to my pocket, when I decide to buy a book
No, this blogging envy is about comments.
I get that I’m not a very popular blogger, and I am so, so grateful and thankful to the people who have been leaving comments on my posts — especially the half-assed ones where nothing make sense! — but there’s this part in me that gets jealous whenever I see someone whom I think is a very good blogger friend, comment on someone’s blog, but not on mine. And when that happens, this happens:
I start to panic, and can’t help but wonder: am I doing something wrong? Are my posts just not interesting enough? But most of the time, I’m able to push these thoughts away and focus on the people who DID comment, who DID take the time to stop by. And I just want to say, those of you who have done that? You’re wonderful.
That’s not all, though. There have been several instances when I tried to reach out to a blogger by leaving comment after comment on their posts, but they never respond. No reply, no “return-the-favor” visit — and I get that you may be busy. I’m busy most of the time, too, which is why I return comments extremely late. But then I realize that that blogger has commented on other people’s posts, and not mine. I don’t want to point fingers here, but this leads me back to square one.
What is it, exactly, that I’m doing wrong?!
Is it that I sound so unbelievably stupid in some of my posts (I don’t doubt that sometimes, ha!), or is it because I said something wrong and they’d rather not leave a comment?
I just can’t wrap my head around it! Maybe I’m being selfish for thinking that the blogosphere revolves around me, or maybe I’m being calculative, because I’ve been known for that bad trait!But enough about me.
[EDIT: I’ve also realized that I might have done this unknowingly a couple of times, and if I have ever done that to you, I want to apologize! I promise you I’m trying my very hardest to respond and return comments.]
What about you?
Do you ever feel jealousy of this kind, or am I the only one? Has this ever happened to you? And if you have any answers on why people don’t respond, feel free to share them, because I’m literally dying to know! Let me tell you that I love you all for leaving comments. I cherish them GREATLY. Here, have some cakes and butterbeer and s’mores to show you guys my appreciation. ❤
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